Tuesday, March 6, 2012
Can't Commit 03/06/12
Yesterday was a really bad day. For the past few days he has been on his phone a lot. It's not just one girl, it's the other one too. I don't get it, I made it clear to everyone that we were going to try to work things out between us. Even the ones who know wouldn't support my decission and give me greif about it. He can't tell anyone, he doesn't want to. I have come to the conclusion that he just told me all that stuff to keep the peace at home. If he can't tell me he loves me in the eight years I've been in his life, it's obviously because he doesn't. He was making me so mad. He would be texting and as soon as I would walk in the room he would turn his cell upside down and lay it down real quick. Really? Do you really think I am that stupid? I tried to give him the benifit of the doubt and when he was on the phone I would think that he was on facebook or talking to his son or just saying how the weather is. But he has had his phone glued to his hand. I saw her name a few times when he was texting. And then he has the nerves to ask me what was wrong. WOW, do you really think I'm gonna tell you after I poured my heart out to you about how I felt and this is what you do? I'm not gonna tell you anything. I'm just gonna put that brick wall back up and let it sink in that "we" are never gonna be. I'm not gonna do the whole sex thing anymore either. If he wants it, he's gonna have to fly one of those hoes out to get it. I'm not going to let him hurt me anymore. If he can't commit, I'm going to let him go. All of him.