Missing Him 03/09/12

Well I haven't really talked to him in a few days, only the general conversation on the way to work and home. He wanted to get lucky and I wouldn't kiss him. I'm surprised he doesn't have that phone in his hand while he's doing me. The more I see him on his phone, the less time I spend on mine, I am seeing how phones ruin people, ruin relationships. I realize he's not talking to them all the time, but I do feel as though he is letting his phone control his life. I wonder what he would do if I asked him to go for a walk at the riverpark and leave his phone in the car. Would he hold my hand as we are walking? Will we have an actual conversation? I am missing him, missing his touch, missing his kisses. I want him to just come over to me and kiss me and tell me he wants me. Not just physically but emotionally too. I want him to tell me he sees this going in the wrong direction and wants to fix it. I want to hear that this is important to him, that he wants to put 100% in to us. Will I ever hear any of this? Does he even realize how seriously I am taking all this? Does he see how hard I am trying to make this work? I hope so. So tomorrow I am gonna try to make it better again. That's about all I can do. Just keep trying, and letting him know I'm not gonna give up.