Sunday, April 22, 2012
Deserve Better 04/22/2012
Things have been going really good, I haven't had any doubts or negative thoughts. I haven't told him I loved him again until today. I kept waiting for him to say it to me, but he never did. So when I text him today and told him to have a good day and that I still loved him, all he could text back was Wow, thank you. You can't have a relationship without love and if he hasn't said it by now, he doesn't love me. It's really sad because I wanted this to work out so bad. But I deserve to be loved. I know there is somebody out there who wants all of me and will love me like I deserve. I have tried to show him that I can be the best girlfriend ever but apparently that's not what he's looking for. There is somebody for me, somebody who will appreciate a clean house and home cooked dinner and the little kisses on top of the head every once in awhile. So I have decided that I'm not going to Florida with him and I'm going to pass up India. It's time I concentrate on ME and what I really want out of my life. I am ok with this decission and ending the relationship. I can honestly say I gave it 100%. So there it is, the end, but just the beginning of my new chapter in life. I can't wait to see what it has in store for me.