Counting Down 05/13/2012

Well he's leaving in 25 days. I am going to miss him so much. Life just isn't going to be the same here without him. The apartment is going to be so empty. But I have totally decided that if I don't hear how he honestly feels about me by the time he leaves I'm going to end it. We have been getting along so good. I am going to spend my time writing and doing some deep soul searching of what I really want out of life. I have a good idea, just need to decide how to get there. Part of me really wants to just not talk to him the whole time he's gone so we both can decide if life would be better without being with each other. What do you guys think? This is where I really wish my friends were here. I have 25 days to figure it out. I guess I will just play it day by day. That's all I have to do right now. The sex has really slowed down. I miss that. Guess that's another thing I have to get used to huh? It hasn't been the same the last few times. You can always tell because I lose interest and all I care about is getting him off. I haven't felt like that in a long time. So anyways, that's where things are at right now. Will keep everyone updated as we count down the days.