Oh What To Do 05/02/2012

So here's the update on my life. I did end up going to Florida with Lance. I was so nervous to meet his sister, he told me that he had told her about me but I didn't ask exactly WHAT he had told her and I didn't ask. I just knew that he had told me everyone liked his ex and thought he was a bad person for cheating on her and getting divorced. We took our time getting up there stopping in Jacksonville, FL. We went to the World PGA Hall of Fame. It was so nice and he held my hand and we talked and it was so relaxing. When we got to his sister's house I was shaking. She made me feel like I totally fit in and was welcomed. We went to the square that night and walked around while we were waiting to pick dinner up. We talked a lot about stuff other than work. The place was awsome. It is exactly the paradise of retirement I would like to be in. We got dinner and took it to his sister's house. We ate on the back patio and just sat around and talked. The next day we went to Orlando to Disney Marketplace. I just can't explain how I felt that day. It was just like when we first met, holding hands and talking like we were the only two people in the world. By the end of the day, I was so totally in love with him all over again. He is truely an amazing man sometimes. At that moment I realized I don't want to be with anyone else. I still haven't heard those special words from him yet though, and I really need to. That is the only thing that will make all this really real to me and that it's as important to him as it is me. On the way back the next day, we drove along the coast. We stopped at the beach and stopped at the pier. We walked the beach and just enjoyed the moment. I wanted to just grab him and hug and kiss him and never let that moment go. I wish we could do these little get aways more often, it was just the most relaxing wonderful weekend I think I have EVER had. I do love him so much!! I just wish he loved me.